Ima wa buko no nihongo amari juzo ja nai. Demo irai ne buko wa nihon de sunde imasu. Buko wa nihongo de mainichi benkyo shitte, renshu shitte, gambatte. KeKeKe.. boku no nihongo wa mada hetai desu ne.

Atashiga sukushi kaitte dake desu. tabun tsugi no posuto wa motto mo nagai. Korewa rensyu dake desu. Tabun ima wa nihon no inochi shaberimasu. Nihon wa omoshiroi kido antaga nihongo de gambatte noni tanoshi katta no inochi imasu. Soshite mo nihonjin wa kinsetsu no hito demo tokidoki hotondo no minna wa tsumaranai.. KeKeKe..

Akashi Kaikyo no hashi mo itta. Sugukatta no mono desu.

Jya minna. sore dake desu.

So how does man survive..?..
Hold a sword and slashed who stands in the front..?..
In our modern age. I think man survives through understanding.
Understanding on why he needs to think along with other men, on why he needs to eat with other men, on why he need to feed other men, on why he must live with other men.
The thing is man needs someone to be with. He cannot appreciate the life he owns if no one appreciates or hates it. It is true that living with others is really hard. Sometimes thinking for your own self is a better answer. But if that happens you are no longer appreciating life that sorounds you, which makes you like a walking body.
Things are not what you want they are.. things are built on how you want it. You must earn it to make a significance in your life and to recognize your existence.
Live with others..then see the difference..
Rome wasn't built in a day..it took time and took men..

Well I was given 15 days to rebuild everything from scratch. And now I remember things that I could have done if only I could have value things. Now its really very hard to cope up with things. I see things very different now.. The sun doesnt set the way I was hoping it would be, the cars doesn't look good on the way I use to see it, the people doesn't smile the way they used to be, or maybe I am just living my life the way it wasn't supposed to be. Recalling things way back my times. I used to be very lucky.. things are coming and going the way I want.. If I could have valued more about those things..maybe the essence of living and remembering it is more treasurable now.

Little time that I have. And I haven't seen things clearly yet. I beg for more time.. time to consider things, time to further evaluate on what would I will become.. and then come to think of it time is what everybody needs.

Now I am only left with two more months. Can I be able to tell on what I want by that time.?. Can I know on what I really need.?. Why am I always left with some decisions. Decisions that I really hated to handle.

So what are the roads.. they say it will take a year in mans life to travel both the road. So if the time to travel both road is the same then the most probable question would be is "what is the advantage of the other road.?.".. Considering things from a personal to material both varies in a two different way. If I take the road that travels away from my friends material would come to play. And if I took the road together with my friend I know that I would enjoy it a lot.

As the day came near.. I wish I already have my answer.

Given a single qouted word..how would you translate it. Would you just give a direct idea unto it.?. yes I think so.. because we normally do that. But what if the this word contains things that requires you to think how would you start it.?.

At one time a friend of mine asked something about a particular movie.. he asked on what my perception is towards the scenes. I said to him on what I think about it.. then suddenly another friend of ours disagreed with that idea. He said you cannot tell it that way.. you're too unrealistic. I was puzzled on why he have said it that way.

So I tried to analyze it in a way that his statement is possible. First thing that I considered in my reasoning was the place of his growth.. A metro.. lots of people, ideas, and miracles.. Second to consider was the place on where he finished his studies.. A catholic school.. protestants, idealogist, miracles.. And last to consider which can balance everything was on what his family looks like.. Literated.. typical father, motivated mother, and not a miracle.

Combining three sources gives me some insights.. maybe it's not the right answer to his ideas but.. I got to know on why we have different perception. Each perception always has its reason.

They say that you know a person the first time you see them. Well for me I don't care and I don't know about these people who attempt to know somebody at thier first meeting. I usually have conversations with someone else before I can tell that I may have known this person.

On the case of girls..I have meet many and got acquainted with them some I can tell are very interesting and some are people that I don't want to see the second time around. There is also one thing that is almost very common among men and that is they usually look at the appearance of a lady before they get to know her.. Probably the size of his body or the pocket..hmmm..?..?.. the shape of her face either it was blessed by the gods or a cursed from down below, the curves of her body that is either very intriguing or something disgusting, some other physical factors. Well I tell you.. don't attempt to know someone in this way. You might end up hurting one another..

Recently I get to know more about this person. I never known her as someone but as something that has the exact definition of being a woman.

And also sometimes I see them as a man as well.. someone who can act just like a real man.

Is the world really that beatiful or is the human life really that exciting. Some men have been frustrated in thier entire life.. so frustrated that they hated everything that sorrounds them. He contains himself not to feel the comfort of friends, the thrill of adventures, meaning of a family or in short...the point on where the does'nt want to love anything at all.

Without love there are only two possible things that will happen one case is that "you will not feel what is hatred" but on this point it's like you are someone who lost his toys in future and trying to find it in the past a person who cannot exist, and the other case is if "the only thing you understand is hate and that the context of love is not in your life".

In the 2nd condittion you are pointing that there is nothing about life that can be enjoyed thus everything that sorrounds are merley just a thing that passes infront of your small life before it will end. You feel nothing at all, not the wind touching your face, water running at your skin, nor the sun guiding your way.

Now..
What if the only thing you want to share is hatred among others that at such point others become inflicted by such decease and then no one already want's to live a life..
What if with that simple thing you cannot see is something that will end the cycle of life..
So why does the man wants to destroy the world.

Who is really the real sensei..?..

An inspiration in the past who envisioned the future..A person developing the future at its current state.. Was it the one on whom I look and stand for when I was in college, a person so benovelent and true to his words. Or is it the one on whom I am engaged with my career, someone who is teaching me a different way of having a life not on what your status is but on how you live life in a way that you are enjoying it.

To start things..back then I see myself as nothing. It's only the knowledge of 1's and 0's that started it. When I entered the evolved life I have seen a different way of determining things. Every day is something that I cannot waste, it's like spending a breath every second on everything that I do that has no meaning. What if there is no more air t breath then what is there for me. There is a one person that started things in my life on how to make it really meaningful. He planted the seed that grows in me unto which I started to nurture as the air pass by. Every day I nurished this plant as I stand up and look up at him. Fertlizing it with everything that I see and what is given.

But then this person was lost during the dark season. The plant he left was not taken good care of properly, leaves starting to dry out, stems are weaking, and cannot barely produce a fruit. The new season started.. A foreign soil was used to nurture the plant again, but now it can't hardly grow and become strong as it used to be. He helps the plant to grow as fast as he could do and bring out a new different fruit. The plant responded but not as the way as he was taken good care of in the past season. But still the new seasn still eager to make it..and now the plant is going good with it's norishhment.

Now a decision comes.. the old season returned and came back to nurished the plant again. The plant could respond properly.. now who is the real sensie..?.. Someone who is an inspiration in the past that envisioned the future..or someone developing the future at its current state..

Some people forgot things because there is nothing there for them to remember. So I say I will not forget this memory I will keep this 4 items..

When I was walking there was something that I have remebered. It was something about changing from one form to another form. To start the story there was the time when I was in college that I was so "geeky" I remember the time to where:

I don't know how to drink beer.
I wear provincial clothings.
I have military cut type of hair.
I carry lot's of books..
I usually carry umbrella.


Basically I am very provinvial looking when I first enter college that even my accent and pronunciation in tagalog is un-oriented. I usually cut my words and that when I remember those. So here comes college events that put a great influences on my traits. I need to drink spirited liquid a.k.a "LIQOUR" inorder to feel being dirty and trashed. I have to smoke to be "IN" with the bad guys and that normal people would fled. I need to stay late to enjoy the night life and chased some of the city people when I am drunk.

I actually don't believe on those things that I have done.

So now to define the word "sacrifice".
What did I sacrifice on the first place and what did I gain in this college life experience.

For sacrifice.. Well I sacrifice a part of my studies and my allowance of course. I studied little and I enjoyed more about the living of college life.

And what did i get from this sacrifice. I have become more versed with living life.. That drinking is good but becomes evil when it's too much, and smoking can really kill people. And still I'm smoking..hmmm..

And one more thing.. with beer everything is posibble.

When they asked me the question "Where are you from?". I told them "I am from Benguet I am a full blooded Igorot". I am so very proud to tell who I am and where I came from. The reason behind this question is that Igorot race are wariors..Igorots defended there land from foreign oppressors.. Igorots are a very superior race that walks in the mountains of Phillippines.. Igorots are people that can't be harmed....Hmmmm I think I'm taking this much to unrealistic. Anyway the point is I consider the race on where I came from as a very beautiful race..hehehe.. Im not also being racist on this. I just see that unto where I came from there are lot of tradittions that make it very wonderful to be with.

And so to define the idea of a warior in our time. Actually a warior is something like that is fearless and strong in hand to hand combat or in battles.. But how about now.. hmmm.. there aint not much of a fight going on around the country.. so how can you find this wariors. So I consider that living towards the end of life is a one great battle and to find the warior. The warior is the person who controls your life. But is someone controls your life..well your a slave of a different warior..hehehe.. That warior is present in every one of us you'll just have to bring him out... You fight to survive everyday. Fight for your right to have a descent way of live, a fight for your right to protect your love ones, a fight to protect your rights and other battles in which we encounter as the days grow older.

The warior within in us is a strong warior...one of the things that I cannot forget that they told me was that.. "When we are born we survive the greatest race of our life" and that race was one of the battle we succeded unto where we came out as the superior warior.